Eclectic Muddlehood

It is a sad scene, often repeated over and over again in this country with a terribly messed up birth culture.  A mother learns she is pregnant with multiples.  Her thoughtless, institutionalized doctor fills her head and heart with crushing, fear inducing phrases- high risk, preterm labor, bed rest, preeclampsia, mandatory c-section, TTTS, long NICU […]

I was driving home from an incredibly difficult birth at one of the area’s busiest hospitals early on November morning when I felt an overwhelming, swirling sense of energy in my womb, right about at my sacral chakra. I could see the energy dance and spin in my mind’s eye, a brilliant orange. My doula […]

As I have begun to start truly processing the twins’ pregnancy, labor and birth, I recently re-discovered three poems I wrote in the days leading up to their birth. Re-reading them, I experience a wide array of emotions, both joyful and sorrowful and I recognize within them wisdom and hope that was not obviously apparent […]

The average American twins are born at 36 weeks gestation or earlier and weigh no more than 5lbs 4oz at birth. These tiny premature babies often spend a considerable amount of time in a neonatal intensive care unit at great financial and emotional expense to their parents. Although our twins’ birth was anything but ideal, […]

I believe in the power of the waning moon, she who heralds times of greatest transformation through the dark passages from one state of being to the next. These precious opportunities to begin anew, changed forever from the edges of our souls to the depths of our hearts, yet still filled with the same essence […]

There are normally sane friends and family out there who for some strange reason are terrified that I am going to give birth to these babies and not tell them about it. Like I am going to hide these two new children from their closest relatives and not let anyone have any contact with them […]

I will be 37 weeks pregnant with our twins on Monday and I am trying like hell to get my house in order before going into labor so that I can leave everything pretty much taken care of and just have people help maintain it postpartum. Best laid plans…..Today I feel as though my every […]

So I am now almost 33 weeks pregnant with my crazy beautiful twins and I kid you not when I say I am huge! More specifically my belly is huge. I mean, move over Santa Claus, your bowl full of jelly pales in comparison to my enormous, constantly wiggling belly full of babies! With less […]

Ask just about any woman who has experienced pregnancy and she’ll tell you how challenging the last couple of months can be physically, but even more so mentally and emotionally. I remember how impatient and irritable I was in August 2003. It was hot and muggy and there was nothing good on television.This time it’s […]

Sleep has become a challenge for me within the past few weeks. It totally evades me some nights. I settled down with my daughter at about 9:30 tonight and was hoping against hope it would be a good sleep night. I woke up an hour and a half later, restless and unable to go back […]